Today: 7W1D
TMI factor: */5
Another ultrasound at Fetal Diagnostic Center tmw. I am trying to learn how to be more excited than fearful before these appointments; I know that's probably an exercise in futility, bc how to you teach yourself to feel a certain way? Hopefully, we will get used to receiving good news and will stop being so fearful. I just can't take anything for granted right now. I want to shop for maternity jeans and think of names ... and I do ... but with a lot of caution. Some might ask why I'm so afraid of miscarriage. Logically, we've had one chemical pregnancy (mc) amid five years of nothing, and can reasonably expect a smooth pregnancy since we've gotten this far. Right? I just can't wait for the end of the first trimester. I pray for the duration and the end and the beginning of the next. I take nothing for granted, i put it all in the hands of God, and I know that means we shouldn't be worrying ("Worrying does not change the outcome") but it's against my nature not to worry a little. I just try to spend more time praying than worrying and so far we have been very blessed.
On Friday we had an ultrasound with Drs. H and A - they're still keeping an eye on what will heretofore be known as the "fibroid or whatever" (fow) - and we got to see the Jellybean. They said he's measuring just right, good heart rate, yay! And then I had an appointment with Dr. K. For whatever reason, in the middle of our session, my blood sugar plummeted and I nearly fainted. So embarrassing - she offered me part of her lunch and I had to eat it. I ATE MY THERAPIST'S LUNCH. Lesson learned: always have snacks in my purse. We went to Pho Mai afterwards where of course I didn't want my pho once it was in front of me.
Will check in tomorrow!
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